walked through a dream and fell sharply .... I hurt my face ... I tried not to despair by the blood gushing from my nose ..
kept walking and found no just reason to be there in the middle of nowhere, just ... cold and a strong desire to scream ...
thread could feel the blood boiling down my lips .... but I was more concerned with finding a way out of that place despite to be outdoors ... was enclaustrante ...
Fool, I told myself if I'm in a dream, why not wake up and ...?
easier if I tried to scream and my voice did not sound
try to look beyond my hands and darkness prevented,
try to jump and touch the sky and my feet could not move,
walk ... if I could walk, but never get anywhere ....
I began to despair
took my shirt and let my blood and dry, and I tried to run
ran and ran and ... time just before my foot was deformed
was slow, slow as the passage of pain ...
llodillas fell down sobbing with fear, begging who is to free me from this hell, and my response was silence ...
wiped my tears and blood stains .. More slowly
I lay on sleep trying to get a hug from the land that I kept experiencing forgiveness
Pedi cried
I touched my heart and I opened it feeling like a book .... I waited
lying like a wounded animal, dying, languid ....
awoke.
With tears in his eyes stared at the ceiling of my room, tears crowding my eyelids began to fall hopelessly
suddenly an image of the past hit my memory ... Hey there
explanation my tears, my dream ... the nightmare ... was you, punishing back my soul with your absence ... whipped my mind even many days after you despise ...
Why I can not forget just as you did!?
because I can not invent an excuse to hate you and get you out of me?
Why I can not just .... die and stop suffering!?
most want from me I gave you everything ... I've given up my dreams ...
many plans ... home, marriage, children, the future ....
many spoils ... ruias, loneliness, tears, a past that hurts ... Today
look straight hurts me so much .... no shame, no fault ... none of that ... that hurts it will not be there, where once were two ... and now ... Now I have wide the way ... Walk upside your hand without even looking to find .... only now I get the cold ...
I have invented a coat, a disguise, a mask, a bubble outside of which I can laugh I can move, I can be a normal person .... but only game to be happy ... is a cruel game ... show the teeth, face tense, exhale laughter .... heavier than any other effort .... because within that bubble .... I'm like a fish swimming in my own tears.
I ordered medicines to forget .... cyanide pills chocolate coated
not work .....
I asked whoever is on duty the limbo of the Gods to take me too busy
punishing the world I have asked that a murderer hired me as an animal hunts ....
sorry I caused.
asked him to life away from me .... and brought me closer to you .... and you approach your life ...
do I then to be like you? I forgot in an instant, that I just threw a rubbish bin, in store for my opinion .... as you did you not mourn the day as I am doing!? and control the urge to know as I am, to call, to get you of ... love me ... that if ... I was loving ...
with your love I was put in skin ... and now is burning me
not kill me kill me .... I was tortured and torn ... hurt me, hurt me ...
eats me inside ....
go back to sleep ... are 6am and finally begin to dream and I fall in the same place ... but now where I operated a mine floor at the feet ...
every step a blast
the pain is intense, but still ... I do not lose any member but it hurts as if I lost .... and so ... I spend my days .... step by step .... day by day .... hour by hour .... minute by minute .... beat by beat .... sigh sigh ... to be .... shattered ...
God, if any, take me ...
Satan, if you exist, take me ...
want to see if it not being here ... can continue to pretend and in my grave at least reminds me ....
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